Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that’s holding on
How do I start to live my life alone
Guess I’m just learning, learning the art of letting go

it's been a while.

yeah, it's been a while since my last post. anyway, i'm very much satisfied with my prelim grades, whew! i just hope i'll also do good in the midterms and finals :)) butl, i am messed up with a lot lot of projects to make and practices for my orgs. whew. imma shout DARNA here to be a superhero to be able to carry out my tasks well. just kiddin'. yet, i still have the time to hang out with my high school friends and classmates. just last Wednesday, we, the Voodoos, went to McDonalds, SM and Ayala. academics, friends, orgs, what more? love life? unfortunately, i don't have any updates for that. maybe my prince is still sleeping or maybe God is still busy writing my love story. HAHA. LOL.

that's all for today. u take care. i miss you. mwahh.

let's have some fun. :P

at last, dance palabas and prelim exams are over. i don't care if what's d score, all that matters is that it's finally over. and yes,,, and i am soo sooo eager to partaay! rock my world guys. :PPP have any ideas? let's have some fun.

new school year. new responsibilities.

my first year in college isn't boring after all. just last month, i was elected vice-president of the whole division 1 (freshmen) in the Junior Philippine Institute of Accountants or JPIA, an organization exclusive for those students taking Bachelor of Science in Accountancy. i gotta manage 490 freshies, ghadd! just last friday, i auditioned into the Cebu Federation Dance Palabas which would be on October 19, 2009 and fortunately, i made it. :)) seems they liked my dance moves during the screening. :PP another organization i've joined was the Campus Ministry Office under the CCY ministry. i just like to continue what i've started during my high school years. :D. well then, July's gonna be a busy month for me. Leadership Trainings, Various Orientations, Dance Practices, Numerous Meetings and Prelim Examinations gonna be on the list. i just hope this would be fruitful and enjoyable one! :)) Indeed. only the best is good enough for San Jose. ADELANTE! :))

first day in college life. :P

8:15 am. dat was the time when i finally arrived at the grounds of my school, University of San Jose-Recoletos. i went directly to the SSD office to get my ID to really feel the essence of a college student. [loser!] then, i accompanied my ex-grade school classmate Jesson to his classroom. after that, i saw my batchmates, Reyg, Mario, Kerwin, Rudolf, Kevin and Erik and we talked of so many things. it was 9:55 when i went to my classroom to attend to my Accounting 1 class. chairs. blackboard. students. the environment was perfect for another school year. we introduced ourselves in front. i had so many friends then. no doubt huh. after the 2 hour class, we went out and proceeded to the next class, ReEd or Religious Education. the room was properly ventilated except for the fact that the schedule was 12-1 and it's eating time. ghadd, i could hear the organisms living in my stomach shouting "jerah, let's eat" (baba rah?). i wish the sked wasnt like that. but it's okay. the teacher in ReEd was great, she was fluent in speaking English and was so approachable and funny. after some talking, she dismissed us. at last, i could eat na judd. i and my classmates ate at the canteen. after, we went directly to the AVR for our next class, English 1. unfortunately, our teacher wasnt around so the librarian took over for the library orientation. the college library was far different from the high school. much much different really. :P after the 1 hour class, we then went to our math 1 class where we met our 'choi' teacher. HAHA. she was amazing and had a very good sense of humor. after a thirty minute talk, she dismissed us. HAHA. nice one.

the first day was culminated at the SHELL where we met with our batchmates from CNU, USC-TC, USC-Main and USJ-R. we talked about the stuffs of our schools and laughed about funny exoeriences on our first day in college life. oh yeah, that was soo cool and awesome hearing their comments and seeing the smiles on their faces. i would surely miss those moments. :(

overall, first day was very satisfactory. i just hope it would continue until the last day of the school year.

it's been five months since i lost you. :'(

January 11, 2009- the worse day of my life. the day where i felt the world is on my shoulders. the day where i felt i'm punished. the day he left me. the day i lost my heart.

today's june 11, 2009. it's been 5 months. i can still remember when he told me he's leaving because of two reasons which i find until now so lame. i can still remember the scene when he told me we shouldn't have that "attachment" anymore. that time, i felt so mad, i asked myself what did i do to make him leave me that easy, i wonder why can't he fight for his love,. until, i found a temporary answer to all those questions- he didn't love me after all.

i know i look stupid because i wasn't able to get over him until. can you blame me? i just love. i love him dearly. i love him like my father.

if he would be able to read this. i just like to thank you for coming into my life. my life was the best when u're still around. i know that i should get on with my life, but a life live without you could never be right. i know you don't love me anymore. i'm not asking man pud to love me back. can you just let me love you? mao ra tu. you take good care of yourself. :) i'll wait for you.

i guess this is really the end of our story. i just hope my wounds would heal and i'll be better in time. but still, i'm praying he would be the one for me, that one day we'll meet again and continue what we've started. we would have that RIGHT LOVE at that RIGHT TIME. <3

my heart. <3

i just want to share the lyrics of the song i'm currently addicted to, my heart by paramore. try to listen to this.

i am finding out that maybe i was wrong
that ive fallen down and i cant do this alone
stay with me
this is what i need please

sing us a song
and we'll sing it back to you
we could sing our own
but what would it be without you

i am nothing now
and its been so long
since ive heard a sound
the sound of my only hope
this time i will be listening

sing us a song
and we'll sing it back to you
we could sing our own
but what would it be without you

this heart, it beats
beats for only you

my heart is yours